Caitlin Kelly's The Words I Wish I Said

Spoiler alert: these were not all the words I wish I had said. In fact, most of these words are ones I wish I hadn't written. It's a simple fact that I wish I didn't care, but sadly, I do. If I had said the words I wish I had, then they wouldn't be my little secret; they would be words on paper in a book. They would be words taken out of context, because the world loves to take things out of context. The words I wish I had said are between me and my party of a brain. Because if you knew the words, then you would have such an advantage over me, and my quiet showers where I ramble on to myself about my words wouldn't be my secret anymore. You may be able to take most of me, but you'll never be able to take all of me.

The words I wish I had said are those that I've kept hidden, tucked away in the recesses of my mind. They are the thoughts and feelings that I've been too afraid to express, for fear of being misunderstood or judged. But the truth is, I do care, and I wish I could have found the courage to say them.

These words would have been a window into my soul, a glimpse into the depths of my emotions and the complexities of my inner world. But alas, they remain unspoken, a secret that only I can truly understand. The world, with its penchant for taking things out of context, would never truly comprehend the nuanced meaning behind these words.

It's a delicate balance, this dance between what I wish I had said and what I've chosen to keep to myself. On one hand, I long for the freedom of expression, the ability to lay bare my thoughts and feelings without fear of repercussion. But on the other hand, I know that these words are mine, a sacred part of my identity that I'm not yet ready to share with the world.

In the quiet moments, when I'm alone with my thoughts, I find solace in these words. They are a safe haven, a place where I can be truly myself, without the judgment or expectations of others. It's in these moments that I can truly revel in the beauty and complexity of my own mind, unencumbered by the constraints of societal norms.

But alas, this privacy is a double-edged sword. While it offers me a sanctuary, it also means that I must bear the burden of these words alone. No one can truly understand the depth and meaning behind them, no matter how much they may try to pry them from me.

And so, I continue to hold these words close to my heart, a secret that only I can ever truly know. They are a part of me, a reflection of the depths of my being, and I'll be damned if I let the world take them from me. Because in the end, the words I wish I had said are mine, and mine alone.

product information: